Nice fabric shops in Berlin and quilting for beginners or nerd like me ...

i made my first quilt for my friend´s baby , really really simple just 4 big pieces for every side, but for a sewing nerd like me it´s a good way to start.
i found this cute fabric and a good organic cotton to make the batting at Frieda Hain in Berlin, the shop is quite expensive but has really really nice fabrics and material for sewing
I also made a very romantic blanket for Tilda Joy , this time i buy the fabric at Frau Tulpe another nice fabric shop in Berlin

saturday..

Fragmento del Documental "otros caminos para dar a luz"

OTROS CAMINOS par dar a luz
My midwife yesterday gave me this documentary,i found it really interesting and touching

NESTING...

Nesting:a natural mother instinct to organize the nest for her baby..cleaning, organizing, cooking meal to put in the refrigerator and clean again, ironing, doing laundry, shopping,making list, doing all the paper and finally clean again despite swollen feet, an aching back, and a huge belly.
I´m totally into the nesting syndrome, i keep on thinking "only four weeks to go so many things to do"
Seriously i´m also taking my time, sleep a lot, spending time on my own, probably for the last time in moths.
Teresa is spending lots of time with her father and she sleep at his place last night for the first time , i had mixed feelings about that but she seemed happy and i think she going trough all the separation stuff quite well, i speak a lot with Teresa, sincerely and even if it´s so hard for me we spent also time all together.I´m surprised how good i can handle the situation, pushing away all the negative feelings and concentrate on myself, the birth and my daughters.

organizing Teresa´s birthday party

Running running running ...organizing Teresa´birthday party.She will be 4 tomorrow
My daughter ask me for a huge cream and gummy bear cake...so i bought Vanille vegan cream and vegan gummy bear without sugar let´s see what i ll will create.
I´ll make some pizza and small fruits and soy yogurt cakes, friends will bring muffins....so get ready for a lot of children action :)
My belly is growing huge, my midwife said that Tilda could be around 2.2 and 2.5 kg now..and i have 6 weeks to go, Teresa was almost 4kg so maybe another big girl. The first months of pregnancy were terrible, i felt to tired and the nausea killed me all the day until the end of the 4 months, nothing really worked, but with the time it goes better, i had a contraction problem a month ago for sure caused by the stress i was going trough but with a lot of rest magnesium and fuck you very much thing goes better, i gain 11kg and that´s good i fell more fit rather that with the time before..i gained almost 20kg with Teresa and i fell like a beached whale.

back...

It´s a long time that i don´t write on my blog, like you could see in the pictures i´m pregnant again, 33 weeks actually, so happy,it is a really wanted pregnancy.
During this journey i become a single mother, not easy in the beginning, been left and cheated with no respect could be heart breaking especially while you are pregnant, but after a while i realized that is just a step in my new life, time to change my self and turn in something better. And i ´m so lucky to be surrounded by lots of friends, other mums and family, i ll never thank them enough for her material and lovely support
Motherhood is such a spiritual journey and practice and you have to left back and far away all the negative person and elements in your life.
Since the beginning i know it would be another girl, and finding a name was easy Tilda Joy, Teresa is so happy about her sister, specially since my belly start to grow, Teresa start to speaks with her sister...shout at her " cannnn youuuu hear meeee I´m Tereeeesa" and loves to feel her sister kick and pushing. I m so proud of Teresa she will be the bigger sister, with some jealousy in the beginning but we are talking a lot about how much i love her and that she will be my baby forever and we will be a great inseparable trio.
I ´m organizing a home birth, i found an amazing midwife, Katharina , she make me feel safe in good hand, she is a professional midwife but we also become friend in this 9 months. I found out that me and my midwife have a really similar background, from the punk hard core, from the squot and etica. So i m focused on my home birth, read lots of book doing some sort of meditation. I recommend to every mom to be to buy Birthing from within written by Pam England, a good guide and instrument for focus on a natural non-pharmacological birth.i ll write more on my next post.

8MONTHS PICS BY PAOLA VERDA